Well, I usually don’t go into real personal stuff on here (lol) but I have to share my experience at Gateway Church this morning. I usually do not sit on the very front row but this morning that is exactly where I felt I needed to be. As I made my way to the front I found about 4 seats open. A couple occupied the seats on the row end so I took my spot in between them and another couple leaving a seat on each side. A short time later an usher came to me with a young couple behind him. He said “excuse me sir can I get you to scoot down one seat, this is a brand new couple and they would like to sit together”. Of Course I had no problem moving down since I was there by myself. I moved over and needed to use the restroom before service started. After returning to my seat I noticed that the newlyweds were no longer there…puzzled and kind of confused I asked the usher where they went and he said they decided to sit in the back. Immediately a woman in her 50’s walked up, she was very excited and full of life, she said to me “excuse me, I never sit on the front row, my husband may not find me because we never do this, but can I sit next to you?” Of course I did not hesitate and offered. She stood looking for her husband very excited, I could feel the love for him and the excitement coming from her. It was very refreshing to be able to see the love and excitement in this woman’s eyes. Her husband finally found her just as we were rising for songs of worship. I closed my eyes and sang the whole praise and worship. I could feel my soul trembling, tears streaming from my eyes with each chord sung.
Every song seeming to speak directly to me. Worship ended in prayer, and as I went to sit down the woman grabbed my elbow, so I leaned in to hear her words…she said “I do not know why but God is telling me to ask you why you are here?” she said “also feel like you are just like Jacob in the bible, I noticed your chain on your hip.” Very puzzled she explained the story of Jacob…it’s your hip…that’s what God is telling me…”you are wrestling with God are you not?”, still confused I replied yes kind of I think. Because I do not know if what a feeling is true? She told me the story.
Jacob Wrestles With God
22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. 23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. 24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, [a] because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
29 Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.”
But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the place Peniel, [b] saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.”
31 The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, [c] and he was limping because of his hip. 32 Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob’s hip was touched near the tendon.
Well the service started and throughout the whole sermon her words are resonating through my soul.
Well during the last song the man to the left of me grabs my arm and says…”Sir I do not know why but God is telling me you are going to great things and help many people, and he want me to tell you that I should be privileged to meet you today, that soon everyone will know you as a great man of God and a prophet of his word. I do not ask I am just supposed to tell you.”
Ok I am totally freaking now. Good, but confused, excited, heart beating fast. Tears running down my eyes, the preacher does his final call for prayer, requesting anyone who thinks they need prayer to come forward. The lady next to me grabs my elbow again and asks me if she can pray for me. She grabs my hands in her’s and starts praying…she prays that her words are true from God and begins to tell me what she thinks of why I am here. She tell me that she can tell that I am battling many demon’s that I am a great Warrior. That there are many demons grabbing me and there is a great battle around me. That she can see me with my boot on their throats, that I refuse to let them over take me. That God wants me to be his Warrior. That he has picked me because I am not the typical look of a prophet that my tattoos and my scars will allow me to reach those that his preachers are unable to reach. He is going to speak through me and together He and I are going to reach thousands and thousands of people all the way from Texas to Israel. That he is going to speak through me and for me not to be afraid. I am his prophet, his new prophet and I will be next to him in battle when He returns.”…in Jesus’s name Amen…
I am dripping with tears and there are 15 people standing around me with their hands on me…I had no clue they were there. She then tells me “Zack you are going to leave here and Satan is going to attack you immediately…I mean as soon as you walk out of these doors he will be waiting.” “God wants you to be strong and follow him He is with you, use your gift of prayer for your weapon. Good luck!” We exchanged information. I told her about my website, my blog, my book, and wanting to public speak. She smiled the whole time and then said God is amazing now I know why I sat here with you this morning. You are going to do great things Jacob and she hugged my neck, she then reminded me that the Enemy is waiting, to keep my faith and be the Warrior she knows I am.
Wow, what a great message. So this morning, I got more proof of the role I have…my calling….some of this may strike you guys as weird or strange but I am not worried about it. People have been reaching out to me my whole life…I have just been denying my role. Well my time is here, I know what my cross is and I am lifting it and carrying it now.