On the way home Saturday from a great day of hanging with my 6 year old Eli, I remember that tomorrow is Valentine’s Day. Just another day to me, but I feel the urge to ask Eli if he thought about getting his mother (my ex-wife) anything for Valentine’s Day? It is 9:50 at night, after a long day Eli is barely coherent in the seat next to me. I gently nudge him as we come into town and ask him, [Read more…] about Faith vs. Hope…and why you need both…
Had a very humbling experience this weekend in Austin Texas, as I was invited to be a guest at the Savage Thrash Throw down. After a 4 hour drive from Thackerville Oklahoma, I finally pulled into my destination. As I pulled down a long windy dirt road I began to see cars, trucks, and people roaming around a gully at the end of the road. There were all kinds of guys meandering around wearing the typical veteran uniform…beard, beanie, 5.11 pants, veteran themed t-shirt, and tattooed from head to toe. But this time the crowd had a different mix of individuals. [Read more…] about Steel on steel…my brother’s keeper?
Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? ….so many questions, so many things that needs to be answered. Welcome to my blog. I plan on this to be a weekly blog. I am a rookie so bare with me. I am learning as I go. This is the first blog in a series I am calling Casualties of war…defeating a silent enemy, and winning the battle at home. This first blog will be laying the base for my series.
Part 1–Destruction (this is going to be a long series).
So I’ve been doing a lot of research here lately, a lot of reading, and also reevaluating myself. And as of lately, today, in fact, I reached out to some friends of mine that I regard as spiritual leaders and people I respect immensely. As many of you have witnessed over the past couple weeks my Facebook post have changed. I’m sure some of you are wondering exactly what’s going on? The answer to that question is very personal and I will keep it that way, but I do want to share something. Those of you who truly know me, know that as of the first of this year I finally accepted the fact but there’s something really wrong with me. Something I’ve been fighting with for over 14 years if not more. [Read more…] about My Destruction
Part 2- Phoenix Rising
Of course what does the egotistical, macho, hard ass veteran, what does he do when things get hard?….he reverts back to his comfort zone…. here are some of the symptoms, and let me tell you I can put a check by every single one… [Read more…] about My Destruction: Phoenix Rising…
Part 3- My Cross
I laid here this evening, doing like I have the past few weeks, reading, researching, trying to let my heart be truly receptive to what He is trying to tell me. Then as I’m flipping through a new book I started reading called the 5 love languages for men, I heard a term that I’ve never heard before. I had the TV on but was not paying a lot of attention to it. I had Netflix searched a series called TEDTalks and was just letting it play in the background. A couple of episodes came on and I would casually glance up from my book to see what the speaker was trying to teach. Well I hear a term from a young lady, she said it’s called “Post Traumatic Growth”…so I instantly look up and rewind it to find out what exactly she was talking about. As I listen to her, I realize she is talking about the exact thing that I am going through right now. So I started researching it….this is what I found: [Read more…] about My Destruction: Picking up my Cross…Post Traumatic Growth